First year of HIGH SCHOOL

avaxxsamantha · Fashionista Joined: 09 Dec 2006 Posts: 25 Smiles: 0 161

sigh..
high school is not what i expected it to be... weird.

the work at ym school is SOOO easy.. easier than gr 8 stuff. but wow, the people.. again, compeltely diff from what i expected. i thought in high school there would be a variety of people, who have different interests and everything. but no... tsk holy f*** everyone comes to school with high-end stuff or either dressed up in a complete tna/hollister/a&f suit. it's like my schools uniform or something. i mean, its not that im trying to say they cant wear it.. but they actually seem like they're too good for those who dont dress like them. im one of the very few who doesnt wear those brands (which im fine with) but the one thing is... im having a hard time barely talking to anyone because a lot of people seem to look at me like they dont really wanna get to know me. its so snobbish of them..with the looks ive gotten. i wish tehre could be people there who'll get to know me because theres a lot more to me... im crazy, im random..and at the same time theres so much shit that goes on in my life that gives me insight and experiences to life that i'd like to share. but it seems like everyone here only talk about shopping..tna.. so on whatever. they really have too much money to spend on. it bothers me when some of em ask to copy my work. DOES ANYONE FEEL LIKE HOW I FEELL?? its amazingly unbelievable to me.. i thought high school was gonna be interesting..with all sorts of people. all this preppy/popular girls type of thing actually exist, and i thought it only existed in movies. i dont know what to do, its not that im pressured to look like them or talk about shit they tlak about, cus that would mean bringing my self down to their level. i just wish id have someone who's laid back and who likes to have a laugh at comepletly nothing.. u know?

DeadDisco · Posted: Sun Oct 14, 2007 7:40 pm Post subject:

I know exactly what you mean. When I was first going into highschool I was thinking there'd be so many different groups of people but it wasn't like that at all. Everyone is the same. Or mostly everyone. It does get better as you go along because the first year everyone is just trying to fit in so they all go for the same thing, but later on people do seperate a bit more and stray off into seperate groups.
Now I'm in my first year university and you actually get to see the diversity of everyone.
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avaxxsamantha · Fashionista Joined: 09 Dec 2006 Posts: 25 Smiles: 0 161

wow cant wait till i get into university.. Neutral

well anyways, i feel like im the complete opposite of what i was in gr 8. i was out going, crazy,funny sociable but now im the one who actually works ahrd in class without talking. its good and all academically, but it just leaves me this heavy hollow feeling inside of me that i have to sleep with every night..and wake up to every morning. i actually dread school now. and with all the family problems i have... it doesnt really help that heavy feeling i have inside of me.. i have a hard time breathing.. not thta my lungs have problem but theres just soemthing inside of me that causes me to breathe heavily...that hoollow feeling is like dragging my breath down

Shanti · Posted: Mon Oct 15, 2007 2:18 pm Post subject:

I loathe high school. I did back then, and I still do now.
I thought the exact same thing.
I don't know what else to say, other than I can completely relate. It didn't get much better for me as the years went by, but be patient. It's only been a month and a half of high school, so there's time for you. Sometimes, though, high school is just shit for some people, and it doesn't get better until you're out in the real world. It's different for everyone I guess.

The heavy feeling... maybe it's loneliness, and you're somewhat afraid of it? That's what it was for me.
I hope things improve though. I agree with DeadDisco. Grade 9 is generally like that.

st3ph · Posted: Sat Oct 20, 2007 12:33 pm Post subject:

when i first came to highschool no one wore hollister or a&f or tna or anything. it hadn't spread to my town yet.

it was alllllllllllllll american eagle.

which was fine. but i didn't really find that groups were that bad. everyone was new to high school and didn't really know each other. i think you just need to be open and willing to talk to people you think you could be friends with, and not judge them by their clothing. they probably don't care if you don't wear certain clothes!

i think as the year goes on, you'll find people with similar interests and stuff, and by the end of the year you'll probably have established a group of friends. did you have friends before high school? if so, where are they? if not, a lot of people go to high school without their normal friends, and they find new ones. i think you'll be ok, but remember that it's not the clothes you wear. wear what you want, be confident, and you'll be fine Happy

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st3ph · Posted: Sat Oct 20, 2007 1:02 pm Post subject:

oops double post*
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electricpearls · Posted: Sat Oct 20, 2007 5:07 pm Post subject:

OMG i feel you, girl!

especially this year (i am in grade 11), my school has gone overly "clique-y". i feel like i am living in like the mean girls movie or something.

there's this group of superbly popular girls who pretty much rule grade eleven, and i'm kind of part of it, but not really.

sure, i have fun with them and all, but they are all such B****ES!! they think they are superior to everyone, and they think that they are the best thing to happen to everyone in the world. they dress with freakin' a&f and tna logos and true religion and r&r logos plastered all over them.

it's like a freakin' competition and i'm not a part of the group because i chose not to compete with them.

sure i wear designer brands but it is because i like them, and i have the ability to buy them, so why not? i don't wear them like everyone else, i incorporate brands into my own unique style and i'm okay with that. everyone may think plastering a hollister logo on your chest is fashion but i don't and i don't care what they think.

i'm sure high school will improve for you.

but i recommend not trying to be popular because i did and it may have worked, but it isn't worth it and the people aren't all that great...

the experience of high school is so much better once you find a group of genuine friends to share all your happiness and troubles with.

in other words though...

I WANT TO GO TO UNIVERSITY AND GET OUT OF MY STUPID CLIQUEY HIGH SCHOOL!
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avaxxsamantha · Fashionista Joined: 09 Dec 2006 Posts: 25 Smiles: 0 161

sigh i dont know if it has something to do with wher ei live.
i live in Markham which is part of the GTA. it's basically REALLY developed and the citizens of markham are pretty wealthy. i moved the markham a few years ago and i hate it. i miss the laid back style back in scarborough/toronto. there was DIVERSITY there. markham is too high tech.. not that i HATE it but still.. everythign here is so big and having big houses and big whateverss are not necessary and there are disadvantages to it. i feel so disgusted knowing how markham had once been a rural area... it was all farms and trees. and they're basically ALL gone due to these f*cking houses. why must it be like thisss? and they keep building MORE asian malls! like there are enough in markham and i see all these construction sites building soon to be asian malls? why? why cant we just preserve these areas... ugh i hate markham

angela · Posted: Sun Oct 21, 2007 11:06 am Post subject:

Aw i feel bad.
I know where your coming from in a way. How you see all the girls broken into groups and all that. The main thing is just dont brinh yourself down to their level, you dont want to turn yourself into one of them just to get noticed.

Look around for other people, even if your school is one of those sterotyp highschools with all the cliques. You have to find someone who likes you for you not just cause you wear designer clothing and live in a nice house. Trust me, those aren't the kind of people you'd want to be with.

Apparntley i'm one of the "nicer" girls in my group. Some of my friends are plastered in a&f and hollister, but i try not to bring my self down to the point where it takes over me and i start thinking im superior then everyone else. I try not to judge people by where they live, and what they dress like. I talk to someone before i get to know them. So all those catty girls giving you dirty looks, ignore them. They aren't worth it! It's better to look around and find friends that are like yoiu, laid back and like to have a laugh.

but i reallly hope you feel better!!

greenism · Posted: Sun Oct 21, 2007 6:29 pm Post subject:

I know how you feel.

I totally, absolutely, CANNOT WAIT UNTIL I CAN LEAVE THIS STUPID CITY FOR UNIVERSITY
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pinkyswear · Posted: Sun Oct 21, 2007 9:28 pm Post subject:

i wish everyone on f18 went to the same school, i just know we would all get along so well !

i am certainly hating highschool right now..
i hope things get better for you
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shortiee · Beauty Queen Joined: 15 Dec 2006 Posts: 100 Smiles: 0 69

that's one of the many advantages of going to a uniform school. My group of friends (i'm in grade 12 now, and we were friends since grade 9) are such a variety of people. Because we wear uniforms we didn't judge people on what they wore (cuz everyone wore the same thing) and I remember thinking, when I first saw my whole group out of uniform and wearing their own clothing (we have days where we dont have to be in uniform), they wre people that I wouldn't even bother talking to if I first met them in their regular clothes. I mean, out group of close friends consisted of people wearing punk stuff, rocker stuff, tna, a&f, hollister, american eagle, ub/up/costa stuff, a mix of everything. So the point is, the world is corrupted.

duckprincezz · Posted: Sun Nov 11, 2007 12:21 am Post subject:

*nods* Yep, it always seems to be like that doesn't it? For some reason though, it didn't really faze me that they all looked like clones...I just searched for the simple people and we turned into a huge group and I don't think about stuff like that very much anymore...until of course someone waltzes down the hall covered in brands or I see ten people in a row walk by us in the same shirt but in different colours
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swtshopper9 · Beauty Queen Joined: 06 Jan 2007 Posts: 109 Smiles: 0 190

You know what- I went through the exact same thing in grade 8. Don't worry about it, people change, and most likely, you will too (hopefully for the better). It's great that you want to stay who you are, and not just metamorphing into everyone else. Every time you go back to school (in Sept.) you'll kind of get a fresh start again.
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